Have you ever had a moment in your life when happiness seems to be within your grasp yet you are so afraid to take it? Not because you don't want it but you are scared shit that it will disappear. It's like wishing you could bottle the moment and keep it that way forever. And you keep hoping that maybe this time it will really be the happy ending you've always been dreaming of.
And there we were, in a kind of harmony; andthe evening was so beautiful, that it made apain in my heart, as when you cannot tellwhether you are happy or sad; and I thoughtthat if I could have a wish, it would be that nothingwould ever change, and we could stay that wayforever...
-Margaret Atwood "Alias Grace"