What if?

I had a nice talk with a friend yesterday and we talked about her accident and other stuffs. Amidst everything there was a question that burned in my thoughts for hours--what if? She asked herself that-what if she died in the accident?

Oftentimes we ask ourselves that question. What if? What if we chose differently? What if we could relive times in the past? What if we decided to look the other way? What if we decided to leave? Lots of what ifs.

I remember the story of jamie in a walk to remember and how she made a list of things she wanted to do before she died. She didn't have what if's in her system. She made sure that she never had what ifs.

But unlike my namesake jamie, I do have my own set of what ifs. Talking to jom made me think of one of them last night. And till today I am still thinking of it. What if. But at the back of my mind I know what's past is past and all we have is the future. So I'll try to thread on and forget the once upon a time what if's.

I enjoyed our talk last night. Been a while since I've been to a girltalk. I kinda miss it na rin pala. I texted ella today and told her how I missed having her around.I miss having my bestfriend around.

I guess I simply miss home.