The battle rages on and its slowly draining me. I'm getting frustrated at life events right now that I'm feeling the frustration draining my energies. Sometimes I just want to quit and run away. Wish I could but I know I have so many things to do and so many promises to keep.
It's hard to love people when they're making it hard for you to love them. It's hard to please someone when the one thing that's making you happy is the one thing they are jealous of.
Honestly I am really tired. I just want to rest. For once I'd like a chance to enjoy the happiness I fought for for so long. I know she loves me but sometimes I ask myself does she even know what makes me happy now? I wonder. And would she ever accept my choice? Or will I be forever the kid who yearns the freedom to be who she wants to be?
Sad isn't it?
I hope the rainbows come out soon. I just hope.